Evening Folks,

I had a dramatic day today. Talk about the full moon, the kids are hyper and I had an argument with Jordan again over addition to gaming. He just won't stop going on about online gaming then he broached on a subject that made me so angry that I felt like punching him. Needless to say Elaine got involved at this point as I starting to swear and shout. I don't really need this as I was already feeling a bit low and Jordan was going on and on like a stuck record. In the end I said there would be no gaming at all and took away all consoles. As I think that these are creating a bad atmosphere with the kids constant bickering and whinging at each other. If they played and treated each other nicer I would not have taken this step. After my out burst, Elaine stopped talking to me, she dislike me swearing in front of the kids. She took Ethan and Michael and his friend out to the cinema. When they left I was too stressed out to do anything so I went to rest and calm down. Jordan did the same. After a while Jordan and I both made up and we had a chat about the whole affair. I explain to him my point of view and he agreed that gaming was not good for the family. I put an analogy of a sense of fulfillment when he accomplished something good like getting an 'A' in his exams. It the same sense of feeling when he completes a level of a game. So in essence one is reality and the other is a false reality. He need to teach himself that the real reality is what counts and not the false one. He also need to learn that that same sense of fulfillment can be multiplied, if he applied himself a bit better and push his own boundaries further each time. Like getting all A's in his exams. I also explained that a lot of people in this world like to stand still and will not explore things that are outside their scope of understanding and asked to him what does he prefer...

BTW I did stop myself from punching Jordan...I think it a mixture of hormones and the full moon that is making Jordan behave like this...Needless to say it's all a matter of living and coping.

Coping is what I do most of days. I cook to help take my mind off things. I made filo pastry stuffed with spinach and feta cheese today. Even Jordan ate some all by himself. He has an adverse dislike for green vegetables. He said the cheese took the taste out of the spinach...right!!! I also feel that in cooking for myself and the family, I am aiding my body with the right ingredients for a better recovery. As most people that know me, I like to take matters in my own hands and rather than rely on somebody else. One of favorite motto's is "If you want the job done right. It is better doing it yourself" another is "Life is a bitch and then you die"....

Later,

Sai