Tiring Day !!!

Hi Folks,

Today was part two on the patio. We dug up the old sand and filled the gaps in with a cement and sand mix. But we used the wrong sand at first and had loads of gaps to patch up afterwards. Luckily we ran out of the initial bag of sand and Elaine had to go and get more. This time we got the correct type. Be aware to use builder sand and not sharp sand. Now hopefully there will be no more weeds growing out off the patio...What assumed to be a 1-2 hour job turned into a 4-5 hours marathon...

Anyway after that we cleaned up and then we had a lovely family dinner...

I am not sure if it is a male thing with the lads. They had started to give what you can call "lip service" back and they also asking and trying to second guess the actions of Elaine and I. I know its a growing up phase, where they think they have all the answers and that they think the parents are dump...in general. They just don't appreciate what is provided for them and shy away from hard honest work...Elaine keep saying they are too young to take up the responsibility. But if they are not prodded in the right direction where does it all end or begin?

What is bugs me is the bed time thing. If they are not ask to go to bed they will stay up till the cows come home. Also the lip service is worse then...I think at that stage their brain are too tired to think and they just think instinctively. As their counter arguments have no sense or foundation in the content. I am assuming that it is only puberty and they are getting accustomed to their new bodies and thought processes. I am trying to bestow upon them that they are old enough to be responsible for their actions and consequences.There are rules to follow and these are there to keep the peace...

Well with that off my chest I feel better now. I think tomorrow I sit down with the lads and try to thrash out some kind of contract with then so that everyone is happy.

I am too tired now to feel the usual discomforts...I am also aching all over as I kinda of over did it again today. I even have to hold onto the furniture tonight to help steady myself walking. This experience is making me uncomfortable, as I feel like I can just let go and collapse in a heap. If there is a will then there is a way...and I think that is what is keeping me going at the moment. Maybe that is the root cause of me waking up in the middle of the night...just to reassure myself that I am still here...I keep thinking it was to do with my bag on my side but sometimes that is fine when I wake up during the night...

Right enough for now time to retire...

Nite All,

Sai