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Masterseek

Hi,
Not really feeling like doing this blog but Sai asked me to so here I am.How is this fair ? That's what keeps going through my mind.Sai in hospital again;4 times in less than a year.He just keeps taking the punches and getting back up again,I'm really proud of him but at the moment I don't understand this world.We've just got to get through this horrid episode,the goalposts seem way off and a couple of weeks ago they were so close.

Ethan is sleeping here beside me,keeping Sai's side warm until he's back home with us.I'm focusing on the weekend away that we're going to have when Sai is able-it's been a long time coming but it will happen.

Sai was looking a bit better again today and had a couple of work colleuges dropped by to see him tonight,thanks C and B he perked up a bit instantly! No action concerning chemotherapy as Bank Holiday but hopefully tomorrow we'll have some kind of plan in place.I can't wait,it was the exactly the same last time just waiting for chemo seems like a lifetime and I can't sleep or rest easy until I know something is happening re getting Sai well again.Thank goodness my mum is here because it would be so hard to hold things together otherwise-she's a star,a bit wacky with it but a star none-the less.She made lovely cauliflower and cheese with the veg a friend dropped by-huge bag of organic veg,must call her in the morning to thank her (husband is organic farmer) I need to take Sai in some good food as a beef curry (allegedly!) turned up for hospital dinner tonight and looked seriously gross,so I phoned Papa Joe's Pizza (i know,really healthy!) and had it delivered to the hospital.Sai has to eat,nutrition is big factor here,but eating something is better than nothing.He has lots of supplements in there too and a nice smoothie in his wee fridge.

I just want my darling back home and on the road to recovery.Another long day ticked off,and the liquid being drained off didn't come out so quickly today which must be a good thing;usually it fills the bag very quickly when the clamp is taken off-the nurse drains off 1 and 1/2 litres every day-so that must mean it isn't producing so much.

Final note is there are a couple of folk I see here in Enfield quite often and this 'pity face' comes on (them) when they ask about Sai,well I just don't need that to be honest,maybe I need to say to them cos it's getting to me.....anyway,my eyes are dry now and the next day looms,nite.E.x