Post Script in Memory of Sai.

Hello Folks,
I did say last Saturday would probably be last blog post but I feel it would be nice to do this.Sai got me into updating his blog and I am missing doing it now,probably because it's so final now.

I don't really know how I managed to get through Tuesday with out breaking down but I did.I talked to our GP about that and he said it will probably hit me in about a months time (hence the Months Mind thing that is done here) I did feel Sai giving me strength.It was all a bit surreal.When the car turned into the driveway at Mount Jerome and I saw all the pupils (well,'angel's Sai's cousin said and that is very apt) lining up in a Guard of Honour it took my breath away-and then to hear Amazing Grace on the bagpipes,well.......just beautiful.We have Sai's friend Billy to thank for that.I put the window down so we could all hear it clearly.We had a Chinese piper at our wedding,Tony Ho is his name,so to have a piper on Tuesday was so perfect.

I hope Sai approved of the service but as I said he doesn't like a fuss or the limelight-forgive me Sai but you needed a fuss made as you can see from everyone that turned out to say farewell to you.'All Things Bright and Beautiful' we had at our wedding so it felt fitting to sing that and the songs I chose all had a relevance.I didn't want it to be too sombre a day and to be more celebrating Sai's life-and I think that was what happened.Sai was straight about things-no tangents or sidestepping the issue as I can tend to do but in saying that I have learned a lot from him over the years (and hopefully vice versa).He's there telling me to get on with things-so I am trying and I'm sure he will keep me on track,well Sai and all our great friend's and family who have been here to support us and help us along the road in the last 15 months.Thank You all from the bottom of my heart.

'Chasing Cars' was out when Sai was diagnosed and we just clung to each other and lay on the bed in Tallaght Hospital and I would be driving back and forwards and it was never off the radio.And latterly the same thing with Take That although I don't know if Sai even got to hear that song............the Travelling Wilbury's at the end was totally Sai,he really liked them.It was a learning experience with the lovely Chinese traditions which I had known nothing about as I've never been to a Chinese passing.East meets West.

So many people said to me what a wonderful service it was,I hope it was.Fr Michael and our friend Enda made it all run so smoothly-I'm indebted to them also.The few words I said are a bit of a blurry memory but I knew that I had to do it.Jordan did so well to say a few words too,I'm proud of him,well of all of them.

I should have thanked all the doctors and staff at Tallaght too-they really did their best to help Sai beat this.Also,if you want to do something in memory of Sai,next time you go shopping buy something organic if you don't already ;whether it be apples or shampoo (health food shop)-he would appreciate that.

On Sunday,(which is today and I should be in bed )the hospice at Harold's X is having a lighting the Christmas tree ceremony from 4pm-5pm and you can donate E5 and 'Light Up a Life' in memory of someone.I'm going to take the boys along and hope to do so every year for their dad.

Ok,signing off now-thank you all for supporting Sai's blog.

ps Thank you for comments posted E_ _ _ and C_ _ _ _ _.

Love you Sai.xxxx