A bit late...

Well what a day this had been. Last night Elaine was in tears and tonight I was in tears. Feeling the cold really depresses me. My whole body tingles. Even touching the toilet handle with my bare fingers make them tingle and it's not a nice tingle at all. So I have a pair of gloves with me all the time for this sort of thing.

My stoma output had increase lately not too sure if it is more liquid I am taking or the after effects of the chemo. I took myself off all the anti nausea drugs. So feeling a bit nauseous now, I can handle it. The main thing is I am still positive and had dragged myself out of my depression hole. What really did that for me was watching the full moon rise above the trees in our back bedroom window. I thought then as it was a start of a new lunar cycle I will start not to think of the negative side of things. The depression might also be a side effect of all the drugs I have been taking.

Elaine and I had discuss my sensitivity to the cold and had decided to splash out on an electric under blanket and long johns for me. I thought of wearing Elaine tights to keep my legs warm but we decided against that as she has short legs :) (I love you dear) No the real reason is that I would need many layers of tights to keep warm. Long Johns might be more practical.

Well did a bit of browsing on all my drugs and I think I should stop taking some of them. two spring to mind Zydol and the other are the sleeping tablets. I will see how I get on tonight.

Now time for bed.

Nite all,

Sai