Morning Folks,

Apologies for not updating sooner. I can't bear the thought of going online today. Not sure why but I decided to veg out in front of the TV. Elaine had her girls night out at the K-Club and I had peace and quiet to watch the TV.

Today was a good day for me. Most of the chemo blues are nearly gone. Nauseous is the main one that is remaining. Apart from that not bad at all. Feeling my energy levels rising and I did not have a nap today. Mind you feeling tired now and ready to nod off. Despite all this I am still troubled by the thought of the cancer returning once it clears the first time. So planning to get round this will take some doing. It will take a matter of determination to stay on course to full recovery first and worry about that later.

Sometimes during my rest periods I imagine that all that had happened to me is a dream. Then it dawns on me that it is not especially feeling the presence of the bag on my side. That brings me back to reality in a big way. As always I convince myself it’s a better solution to my immediate problem. I did feel down due to this but had picked myself up and wash away the doubts in a nice hot bath. I feel cleansed of doubts and negative thoughts to my recovery. Being positive through all this pain and grief can be daunting sometime, without the support of the family and friends it can be a constant up hill struggle.

Well I off to sleep now,

Nite all,