Still Hanging In There...

Hi Folks,

I am still at home and doing okay. I went for a nap after the last post. Despite being woken up with sounds of gunfire and explosions about half an hour after I lay down. I am feeling okay. The world war three sounds were coming from Jordan's Game Console and his loud surround sound system, someone had "forgotten" to switch it off after switching it on. When I went to find the culprit, the house was like the Mary Celeste. There were signs of people about but there was no-one to be found and the front door was unlocked. After checking out the whole house, I locked up and tried to go to sleep again. Which I could not, lucky for me, my mobile phone went off an hour later and Elaine was on the other end. She and the two lads were in the back garden trying to get in...no one had the notion to take a spare key? Anyway after letting them in, Elaine mentioned that Michael was the last one out and she ask him to take a key when he goes out. I went back to bed knowing that someone was looking after the place once again. Sleep still eluded me so I sat up and tried to read, but my heart was still racing and the sweat was still pouring out of me. So I got up as Elaine had prepared dinner and was just about to bring it up to me. Actually the sound of the smoke alarm and the smell of burnt oil drew my attention that Elaine was making dinner and that she was downstairs silencing the alarm. By the time I got dressed and went downstairs she was finishing putting my dinner on a plate. It was only then that she mentioned that she was going to take my dinner up to me...

After dinner, I felt a little better and plod about for a while. Then Michael came in complaining that Jordan and his cohorts were picking on him and excluding him from their wee gang activities. Well I asked him why and who started this and he said it was one of Jordan's friends. The reason was that one of them wanted to watch a youtube video and I did not allow them permission as I did not want anyone in the playrooom or the loft disturbing my sleep especially after the game console incidient. On that incident Jordan put the blame on Michael as he told Michael to switch it off...hence the reason for them to pick on Michael...

So I asked Michael to ask Jordan and his friends to come to the house, so that I can speak with them. After a while Michael returned alone without Jordan and his friends. Then after another while Jordan returned alone and stated that he was just in to get a sweat shirt. I quizzed him about the whereabouts of his friends and he said that they did not want to come to speak with me. After he said that I felt my temper rising and upon further questioning about the Michael episode I really felt that my head was going to explode. But I kept my temper under control and talked calmly to Jordan about what happened to Michael. I just wanted to find out whose idea was to pick on Michael but I did not get a coherent answer to that. At first he said it was no ones and then every bodies...at that point I nearly lost control with myself. It took a lot of effect to remain calm and collected. Despite this I moved on to ask why didn't his friends return with him to the house. Again there was no coherent answer to this and Elaine decided to get involved. At this point I was swearing...After some banter she took the two lads to the play room to talk to them. After half a hour I decided to check in on them. She still did not get coherent answer from Jordan, it was only when I threatened to go to seek out his friends, that he decided it was his idea to pick on Michael and exclude Michael. This was only after about a hour and a half of talking with them. I was livid with rage at that point but I still kept myself calm and I went to another room to calm down. It was at this point that I realised Jordan's loyalty belongs to his friends and not to the family. I don't think I can trust him from now on...

After calming down I just sat in the lounge full of shock. I was also too weak to get up to go to bed. So I rested where I sat and tried to force air into my lungs. After a while I manage to get up and see where they were. Elaine and the two lads were calmly watching TV in the play room. I bid my good nights and went slowly upstairs.

I am feeling better after this horrid episode but I realise now never to rely on anyone else to aid me on my present course...Elaine is not talking to me now and the two lads are keeping out of my way. So it will be a lonely journey from now on...

On that sad note,

Nite all,

Sai