Wednesday

Hi Folks,
Sai had his 2nd session of chemotherapy today and said not to go in as he'll be sleepy and nauseous all night (finished chemo around 6pm i think).I feel really guilty not going in.He was given better pain killers yesterday as he pain wasnt going away or being dulled for long so I think they've helped.AnneMarie,the Oncologist Liason Nurse who is really lovely popped in yesterday when i was in visiting and she said we need to sort this pain out (just sending another text reply there-phones been going all night!)Ray McDermott didnt realise Sai had been in such pain-why did no one realise,I keep saying it! although i havent seen McDermott since he just came back off holidays but i don't think Sai was 'shouting' loud enough!

Anne Marie called me around 5pm and had a chat.She said Sai was sleeping on the chair (getting his chemotherapy) and had his i-pod on which is a good sign as he's not even been feeling up to that lately,in fact has hardly used it since being in there-and that isn't like him.

He has been told the you know what has spread a bit-that's probably what's causing the pain in his stomach,along with the fluid.So,the chemotherapy will have to work twice as hard and get rid of it ALL!Yesterday wasn't a great day and Sai was quite upset-it's so hard sometimes and I feel helpless most of the time-clean pj's,t-shirts,socks and juice-that's what i'm doing.We're going to sell Sai's wee Golf as it's sitting there doing nothing.I took some pics and Jordan printed it out so going to put it in newsagent's window tomorrow.

better get to bed as up early tomorrow,night.E